Young and Disillusioned

I remembered a time when I was fresh out of university and everything was possible. It was "the world is my oyster" moment: walking down Havelock Lane in summer, almost running, to hubby's (then boyfriend's) house.. almost bursting with the news of my exam results. It was a time of great personal achievement: to have done (reasonably) well academically. Yet it was also a time of great confusion. All my life I had thought of going to UK to study, did it. I worked hard to get a 2:1 for my law degree, got it. I wanted so much to be a lawyer, hmm.. more of that later. Then, I came upon a stumbling block. What next? By then, I've read quite a number of self-help books about goal-setting and such. Yet I was confused as to my direction in life.

I met a student today who reminded me of where I was. She shared with me that working for her final year studies was such a great challenge that she has now lost the passion to 'fight'. I sat and listened to her, mostly. I hoped in my heart that she will find her way in her own time. I know that that is true, no matter what I say or how much advice I give her.

Now I am a bit more realistic on what I aim for. I know now that I need to keep setting my eyes on new prizes every now and then. Everything still IS possible, I know my strengths and where I need to improve. I am ever-ready to embrace change. I have also realised something quite simple yet profound: decisions and outcomes in life are never absolute.

By the way, I've stumbled upon something interesting online: www.movie.com. Since I have very little time nowadays I can watch the trailers, read the complete review/ synopsis from another site and form my own conclusion. I'll save a whole lot of time, won't I? Please excuse me while I sneak a peek into Memoirs of Geisha... hehe.. and maybe Brokeback Mountain later.