Assessing Value
My maid just threw out 2 bagfuls of toys. I had wanted to sift through the contents first but someone elso got to them- the toys were left outside the house and somebody must have taken the liberty to open the gate & took them away (the nerve!) and that's the end of it. Goodbye toys. Maid has felt genuinely guilty about it and suggested that I take part of her salary to buy new similar toys.. but I'm afraid it's not just about buying new stuff. It's the memories of my children playing with them, and parts of other toys that still remain in the house that'll never be whole again!
Perhaps I was most upset about the latter rather than the former. How dare she decide which toys go and which ones stay? This is my bloody house for God's sake! Can I have SOME control over the contents of my house please...! I'm so very upset but honestly see no point in screaming at her. She's gone too far- at least she should have told me her plans- I was about to spring clean the house this weekend too!!
I don't know why I'm so upset- maybe it's about the control. And the poor toys! The silly thing is that some parts were thrown out and some parts are still in the house- whatever the hell will I do with them??? The best choice is probably to throw them out too... eventually :p
I won't be speaking to Ms I-just-can't-wait for a while. At this point I actually hate her. I have a lot of "should-have"s now- should've brought the toys in, should've sifted through them yesterday, should've locked the stupid gate, shouldn't have let Aisyah play at the house and let Farhah send her home without locking the gate. Stupid, silly feelings!
Why am I so emotionally attached to stupid inanimate things anyway? I say just let it go and forget about it. I don't want to get cancer from thinking of those blasted toys.
She had told me that the toys thrown out were broken. I guess I have no choice now but to trust her with that. No point doting on it anymore. Out with the old, in with the new- that's life.
At least another thing happened today but this one went very well. I met my old friends in a gathering- primary school friends who I last saw at the age of 12... 21 years ago to be exact! That would've balanced my blood pressure back to normal.
I'll bake some suji cookies tonight and de-stress. That's a plan. Either that or I should make an appointment to see the shrink a.s.a.p.
Perhaps I was most upset about the latter rather than the former. How dare she decide which toys go and which ones stay? This is my bloody house for God's sake! Can I have SOME control over the contents of my house please...! I'm so very upset but honestly see no point in screaming at her. She's gone too far- at least she should have told me her plans- I was about to spring clean the house this weekend too!!
I don't know why I'm so upset- maybe it's about the control. And the poor toys! The silly thing is that some parts were thrown out and some parts are still in the house- whatever the hell will I do with them??? The best choice is probably to throw them out too... eventually :p
I won't be speaking to Ms I-just-can't-wait for a while. At this point I actually hate her. I have a lot of "should-have"s now- should've brought the toys in, should've sifted through them yesterday, should've locked the stupid gate, shouldn't have let Aisyah play at the house and let Farhah send her home without locking the gate. Stupid, silly feelings!
Why am I so emotionally attached to stupid inanimate things anyway? I say just let it go and forget about it. I don't want to get cancer from thinking of those blasted toys.
She had told me that the toys thrown out were broken. I guess I have no choice now but to trust her with that. No point doting on it anymore. Out with the old, in with the new- that's life.
At least another thing happened today but this one went very well. I met my old friends in a gathering- primary school friends who I last saw at the age of 12... 21 years ago to be exact! That would've balanced my blood pressure back to normal.
I'll bake some suji cookies tonight and de-stress. That's a plan. Either that or I should make an appointment to see the shrink a.s.a.p.
posted by elya at 8:21 pm
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