Hands Off

Some things are just not meant to be. I'm not sure if this is my 6th sense or what-have-you.. but I had a feeling that Mr Ex and I will not go beyond a certain stage, because at one point I literally could not see the way forward no matter how many options I opened up.

N.. well what can I say.. he is the perfect person at the most imperfect moment. Again it is another story for which I do not see beyond blackness. Well I introduced some permutations that could make the relationship workable: but no matter what the variable is, it seems that the one who will end up severely crushed would be me. No can do.

S.. have I gotten better at this, or do I actually see @ feel it? He may not be the person for me either. What do I do? Maintain status quo I suppose, because he is not pushing for marriage. He is a sweet person, kind-hearted & funny.. but the big question is: is he for me & me for him? There doesn't seem to be a resounding "yes" at the end of that question.

My heart is properly guarded now. Who will heal it permanently? I have no idea. N helped the healing.. so did S. Both have their own qualities that made them special individuals in my heart. Let the upcoming episodes be written...!