To be or not to be..

Waiting with bated breath. What's going to happen next? Will we stay together or will we part ways? Will I make the right choice or will I make the worst mistake of my life? Do I be patient or do I push forward? What will happen in the end?

No way to know for sure, until I do it. No way to tell if I'm going to be happy unless I take the plunge. I feel like running away again. Feeling apprehensive and uncertain.

Well it is ideal for him to remain single I suppose. On my part it probably is equally ideal for me to maintain status quo. Will the loneliness finally abate? Will I ever be completely happy? Will anyone?

What I can decide however is to be wholesome and accepting of my moment NOW. I am happy. Life is good compared to my moments with Mr Ex.