Sorrow

Feeling sad this evening, but decided that it is just one of those moments. I could be missing someone, or just pondering on my future, or just thinking of my unfinished & never ending work.

Perhaps it is time to stop everything. Give up. Do nothing.

At work it seems endless that I keep delaying everything. All on me. Under the microscope. I hate the feeling. Can't seem to catch up.

Maybe I should resign and find something else to do. Nobody else to blame but me. I want to do a good job but every little thing seems like a major issue these days. Who am I to say when I keep delaying things?

What would I do without any work? My useless ex husband will not be of any help. He can't even help himself. I wish I could suck it in & swallow every bit of abuse. Start applying. Go. Forget about everything. I'm so thoroughly confused now. Why am I so inefficient?