Sacrifice

We are each dealt with different hands in life. Which shows that we need some character building from time to time. God gives us a kick in the backside when we slacken. There is no choice but to embrace our fate and move on.

However, this is probably easier said than done. Embracing and moving on will be great in certain situations, and a bit more challenging in certain others (say, when a divorcee has 5 children). For simplicity, I would probably choose to live my life as a single person & raise my children.

There is so much more to life than romantic relationships, isn't it? Marriage to Mr Ex was perhaps one of my most fantastic mistakes & I get to pay for it, probably for the rest of my life. I cannot impose my story on any other soul: I'll just move along with whatever plans I have, rightly or wrongly (do you see how much drama I have in my life?). I will know eventually if the plan was in fact a superbly wonderful or a completely terrible idea.

What is "love"?

These were the answers from my friends:
# Love is when I am number 1 in his books (considered a priority over his friends)
# Love is when my heart is filled with longing & I feel happy just being with the person
# Love is when I am showered with attention, hugs and kisses (and gifts)
# Love is like coming home to a safe harbour
# Love is digging your heels and braving the storm, because there is something worth fighting for
# Love is when he looks at me as if I'm magic, as if I am the best gift he has ever had in his life

Have I found love?
Or are we just really close friends?
Are we willing to take another step forward?
Is he strong enough to handle my complexities?
Am I strong enough to handle his complexities?
Are we good for each other?

What I know is: he is my calming presence. Without a doubt.
Someone who I can sit in silence with and be completely comfortable.

What will happen next?
Stay tuned (because I really have no idea).