Loop the Loop

Here we go again for the umpteenth time, me for the most part placed too much hope and held myself out too much... and had the hopes dashed yet again.

Just stop will you please? Stop the personal abuse because you are way better than this.

Rise up. Live a proper, God-fearing life and focus on the important things. Like family. And career, to some extent.

Maybe I am too immature and not ready for this. I'd like to reflect and not feel anything. Be completely objective. And not have any vested interest. And be completely alright. And not transfer my misery to anybody (except a certified psychologist, perhaps). Because the outcome is too uncertain,

Relax. Let's be completely okay with things. Respect myself and preserve my sanity.