From the Outside Looking in

Having had the benefit of hindsight, I am now able to see the situation as it is. The mistakes I've made. The things he could've done right. The things BOTH of us could have done to recover or at least remedy the situation, if it was at all possible.

What would happen to me if I had stayed married to him? Probably I'll be a fat miserable old woman. Now I'm just old & sometimes miserable. Haha.

Now it occured to me that things have somewhat worked out for the best. Not ideal, but workable. Some level of respect still remains, we both decided to act in the children's best interest, and he is free to pursue whoever he thinks is the perfect woman who can give him endless bliss (not me!).

What do I do now? Frankly I don't know. There is still some 'lost soul' left in me, still wondering what to do with my life. However once the shackle is removed I feel unburdened... and free... it is quite exhilarating!

Let me just do this for myself. For once in my adult existence I am not seeking his advice on what to do. Goodbye to our plans.. Welcome to MY new plans. The drawing board is all yours my love *hugss*