Dumbstruck

Feeling sad about this whole business. Yet I have to move forward. I can't rely on men, can I? Unless they're on paid service then they're reliable.

How do some people get so lucky? Maybe because they believe it. I should have the same belief shouldn't I? Let's just try that, no harm.

I believe:
... that there is someone kind who will appear in my future & we will love each other in the right way
... that my children will turn out well-adjusted and successful
... that I will have my bungalow in the suburbs
... that I will have my BMW X5 in the garage
... that I will have enough money for my travels
... that I will be a good mother to my children
... that my children will love each other
... that things will work out well for Mr Ex, N & S; may they find happiness in other people who is not me
... that I will school my children using money set aside from my salary
... that I will have a source of income that is halal
... that overall I am a good Muslim

Love you lots. These things are temporary so look forward & be happy. May he find happiness in his future. I am too complex a creature to be loved.