Message to N
Dear N,
I know now you probably don't feel like acknowledging my existence or even talking to me, but I only have happy news to share with you.
You'd be happy to know that now I cook & am feeding the children. Nothing fancy: the usual rice & protein & vege. Yesterday it took me nearly 3 hours to complete the cooking, inclusive of dishwashing and kitchen cleaning time. Your wife could probably do it all in 30 mins AND bake a red velvet dessert AND decorate the cake AND present the dishes in the most delightful way possible.
I have dropped out of the PTA committee and is staying at home most of the time. Which is good and relaxing, not to have meetings or think of any particular project to handle. I am also phasing out my involvement with the alumni group & the 2016 Family Day will be the last project I support, before I immerse myself in my studies which will start in May 2016. After May I would probably disappear and resurface sometime in 2020, when Malaysia gains the 'developed' nation status.
The children are doing well. Facing some challenge with raising teens, which you may not likely face because your girls are perfect & marriageable & all that. Good for them & good for you because they have a good functional mother who stays at home. I don't have that luxury I'm afraid & I will play the hand I'm dealt the best way that I can.
I know I'm not living my life in the way that you see I should, but rest assured me & the children are making progress. I will make the decisions and I will move forward and I will take responsibility for the outcome. We are not in the lap of luxury (of money or time or sometimes comfort) but we will make do, because this is our life and we will own & embrace it completely.
Hope that you're doing fantastic with your loved ones & the beautiful life you have designed. I know you feel lonely and isolated when you're working, but the returns far compensate your sacrifice and your family appreciates you all the more for it.. and you & your wife will live happily ever after. So there.
Do take care of yourself & have fun in all that you do. I hope you find the people who will enrich your life in many different ways.
xoxox
I know now you probably don't feel like acknowledging my existence or even talking to me, but I only have happy news to share with you.
You'd be happy to know that now I cook & am feeding the children. Nothing fancy: the usual rice & protein & vege. Yesterday it took me nearly 3 hours to complete the cooking, inclusive of dishwashing and kitchen cleaning time. Your wife could probably do it all in 30 mins AND bake a red velvet dessert AND decorate the cake AND present the dishes in the most delightful way possible.
I have dropped out of the PTA committee and is staying at home most of the time. Which is good and relaxing, not to have meetings or think of any particular project to handle. I am also phasing out my involvement with the alumni group & the 2016 Family Day will be the last project I support, before I immerse myself in my studies which will start in May 2016. After May I would probably disappear and resurface sometime in 2020, when Malaysia gains the 'developed' nation status.
The children are doing well. Facing some challenge with raising teens, which you may not likely face because your girls are perfect & marriageable & all that. Good for them & good for you because they have a good functional mother who stays at home. I don't have that luxury I'm afraid & I will play the hand I'm dealt the best way that I can.
I know I'm not living my life in the way that you see I should, but rest assured me & the children are making progress. I will make the decisions and I will move forward and I will take responsibility for the outcome. We are not in the lap of luxury (of money or time or sometimes comfort) but we will make do, because this is our life and we will own & embrace it completely.
Hope that you're doing fantastic with your loved ones & the beautiful life you have designed. I know you feel lonely and isolated when you're working, but the returns far compensate your sacrifice and your family appreciates you all the more for it.. and you & your wife will live happily ever after. So there.
Do take care of yourself & have fun in all that you do. I hope you find the people who will enrich your life in many different ways.
xoxox
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