Woman Unleashed
Once you have reached a particular point in life, especially after a major overhaul or life-changing experience, it is almost certain that you will never go back to who you were/ what your life was.
Like Beauty, after living in the castle with Beast, was allowed to peek back into her old life through the magic mirror. She remarked "This place is much smaller than I could remember".
... or Frodo, returning to the Shire after the adventure with the Fellowship... had felt that things were as they were, and yet he has grown/ changed.
After 'conquering' Mount Kinabalu (and I say this with utmost humility), apparently the highest peak in South East Asia, I had felt like Beauty and Frodo (I think). I know how they feel & coming back to work was almost like an anti-climax.
So I have climbed the highest peak in the region. Sure, it was quite difficult to do, but it is completely doable & possible for many men & women. The feeling that I got was (perhaps best derived from a great mountaineer's quote): "It is not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves."
Reaching 3000 metres and walking towards the peak (this would have been around 5.20 am on 13 May 2017), I was overwhelmed by emotions. In complete awe of the Mountain's beauty and strength, In praise of the Entity who created it, and having quiet pride in my ability to finally do what I wanted to do ever since I was a child. I reached the peak around 6.18 am, drinking in the sights and having moments of disbelief, and being quite terrified as to what I had gotten myself into (particularly: how did I get this high, and how do I get down from this rock #AlmostInTears).
Now I am safely on sea-level, back at work, marking my students' test papers.
I feel blessed, and loved, and supported. Mom came and babysat the children while I was away for 5 days... and S being the sweetheart that he is, messaged daily to find out how I was doing. So I have done it and the paths have opened for me. What will I choose?
(Here comes another anti-climax because I still don't know)
Strength has been obtained. The world IS possible, and the opportunities are endless, as long as I want it. It is now time to BE. Will spread the net in a few focused directions, and see where fate takes me.
Like Beauty, after living in the castle with Beast, was allowed to peek back into her old life through the magic mirror. She remarked "This place is much smaller than I could remember".
... or Frodo, returning to the Shire after the adventure with the Fellowship... had felt that things were as they were, and yet he has grown/ changed.
After 'conquering' Mount Kinabalu (and I say this with utmost humility), apparently the highest peak in South East Asia, I had felt like Beauty and Frodo (I think). I know how they feel & coming back to work was almost like an anti-climax.
So I have climbed the highest peak in the region. Sure, it was quite difficult to do, but it is completely doable & possible for many men & women. The feeling that I got was (perhaps best derived from a great mountaineer's quote): "It is not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves."
Reaching 3000 metres and walking towards the peak (this would have been around 5.20 am on 13 May 2017), I was overwhelmed by emotions. In complete awe of the Mountain's beauty and strength, In praise of the Entity who created it, and having quiet pride in my ability to finally do what I wanted to do ever since I was a child. I reached the peak around 6.18 am, drinking in the sights and having moments of disbelief, and being quite terrified as to what I had gotten myself into (particularly: how did I get this high, and how do I get down from this rock #AlmostInTears).
Now I am safely on sea-level, back at work, marking my students' test papers.
I feel blessed, and loved, and supported. Mom came and babysat the children while I was away for 5 days... and S being the sweetheart that he is, messaged daily to find out how I was doing. So I have done it and the paths have opened for me. What will I choose?
(Here comes another anti-climax because I still don't know)
Strength has been obtained. The world IS possible, and the opportunities are endless, as long as I want it. It is now time to BE. Will spread the net in a few focused directions, and see where fate takes me.
posted by elya at 2:56 pm
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