The Capacity to Forgive

To err is human, to forgive divine.

How do some women (some of them I know) allow their men to gallivant and play the fool?

"He comes home to me" she would say.

He sure does, maam. But do you care where he or his dick has been? Eww

[For the record, hubby has had emotional affairs & I have not found evidence of sexual contact.

Having said that however, I will not keep digging. Let me be ignorant in this respect; because I really do not want to know. I also want to keep the last shred of respect I have for him, for both our sakes]

Some women do forgive and repeat the cycle, ignore their gut instincts, and wallow in pain.

For the life of me, I really cannot imagine living like that. Suppressing personal feelings, in order to keep a husband & family together, and to comply with society's expectations.

I will probably not be popular as the serial divorcee. Well TWO is hardly serial, but you know... people assess value based on what they see. Honestly, I do not mind the judgy folks, because I know my family loves me; supports me all the way; and prays for my goodness.

At this moment I do not want to care anymore. 

In fact, I am no longer distraught.

I no longer have the pain/ fear/ anxiety/ questions:

Is he messaging her?

What do they talk about?

Do they discuss about me?

Is he thinking of her?

Are they out together?

Is he answering her calls?

Does he/ she/ they feel any guilt or remorse?

Because I do not care anymore.

Mentally and probably spiritually our ties are cut.

Legally, it will happen on 28 May.

He can do WHATEVER he wants to do.

He is a free man.

I am not interested to monitor,

Or speculate,

Or track his whereabouts.

Fly free my dear.

I wish you the best!