Forget You

Last night I had a dream. I went on vacation somewhere & Mr Ex was there with a big family. They had trouble with hot water in their apartment so they used my bathroom. (You know how in dreams these thing don't get explained.. they just are like that).

At one point he used the bathroom with me & shared the toothpaste (again, just accept these as they are & don't judge).. the bathroom sharing felt completely normal & non-sexual in any way.. I joined them for dinner, there must have been maybe 20 of them.. very lively & talkative & doing 10 different things at a time.. At the dinner table Mr Ex kissed me & I was not involved in it. My mind went "how come this doesn't feel like before".. "what is my next vacation plan after tonight".. "how long must I share my bathroom with these people".. so I guess that means that there are no more feelings. Honestly I don't ever want to kiss Mr Ex ever again. Yecccchhhhh.

Can't wait for the 2 year mark honestly. I was teary-eyed for the whole of last week, possibly this is the LAST vestige of grief that I have to go through.. and after this I expect to be alright. I am more sure-footed now, compared to 2 years ago. No longer forlorn or feeling that I have to compete with Mr Ex (because I already won.. haha). I have met may other wonderful men (romantically or otherwise) and also women who are beautiful inside & out.. and I have had the opportunity to do the things that I have always wanted to do.. and I am enjoying my life as it is now. So let's continue to be fine & thrive. LOVE YOU LOTS!!!