The Need to Love (and be Loved)

Why are we all so desperate for love sometimes? Me especially. What is it about being in love that is so sought after?

Perhaps I like the attention. That someone is thinking of me. Well my children and family thinks of me. But I guess it is different when you have a special someone.. one person.. who thinks of you.. and you think of..

I want a companion who loves me as I am. Someone who I can grow old with. I am old fashioned that way. Not exactly white picket fence etc.. but a home we build together, our sanctuary. I want someone to love with whom I feel safe & treasured.

So take note my dear.. you can't expect it from people if you don't give it. Am I ready to give? Do I have it in me or has Mr Ex drained me of my capacity to love and care?

Well I think I am able to love and care and trust again, and I pray for someone kind and worth giving my love and attention to.. and hopefully he feels the same about me.

Still in sad sulking mode.. but I'll be alright. Whoever S chooses I promise I'll be happy for him. Seriously I don't fit the profile of the usual girls he date. Let's leave this one be. Can't wait for my May class to start.