Layers

This week was particularly interesting. S returned from Perth & we met up after being away from each other for 4 days, separated by the vast ocean (always the drama queen, ain't I?). At the same time Mr Ex has some financial issues (ongoing, as usual). I got in touch with N too, to get some input. A whole lot of things rolled up into one. What did I do? I embraced everything... and peeled off my layers... and cried my eyes out.

Getting into another relationship & having to deal with Mr Ex in the past tense, I realised that there were many accumulated emotions that I had suppressed for nearly 17 years (the length of our married life). This weekend I managed to release quite a significant amount of emotional baggage. How do I know? Because I felt light after that. As with the alimony & children's expenses that has not been paid, I don't want to be too bothered about it. Have decided to let it be for now. I believe in the afterlife and heaven & hell... so I hope Me Ex has a good reason to give when Our Big Boss asks him about the money that is due to the children. As for me I will try to pay off whatever I can from my own salary & pray for abundance. May my rizq be sufficient to raise my wonderful children.