What have you done, silly girl?

Some people have radars that repel trouble. I probably have my radar built in reverse. I attract men who are not good for me, and marry them. Mea Culpa. I take full respnsibilty. Arranged marriages are most likely for people like me. Who cannot decide. Rather unable to decide. Always reading the wrong signals. Always making the wrong decisions, never learning from mistakes.

Silly girl.

Were they good men? Yes I would say so, but bad matches unfortunately. With me in particular. Perhaps they would be a good match with someone else, but not with me.

Maybe I'm also not the marrying kind, who knows? I appreciate my men, but I don't think I had made a good wife to either of them. Bummer. Shit happens.

Whatever would I do now? Being the great proscrastinator that I am, I will finish my thesis first. Will give this marriage another year & we'll see what we can do next. Gloria Gaynor, I will need you again when this eventually happens.