What we could have been

We could have been so great together: I am serious, you are lighthearted. 

We both have lots of ideas, we could make things happen.

We are great in organising events, for others.

We could have brought the best out of each other,

But we flew too close to the flame.. and got burnt.

I thought we have come to a point where we were comfortable with each other,

That our 5 years together have morphed into strength,

for us to carry on for the next 5-10-15 years and beyond.

Never had I been so wrong. Or more deluded.

I remembered thinking,

once I finish the PhD,

once we move to the UK,

once we are far away from your attention seeking girls,

we could totally focus on each other,

and live in our own happy bubble.

When in fact it should start NOW

not later

not eventually

not some day

loyalty is ingrained

i do not have to keep reminding you

time and again

like a broken record

In the time we were married, you had been paying the same amount of attention to other ladies. I had thought I was special, as your lawfully wedded wife, but not any more special than your exes. I thought I deserved full focus and attention, but that attention was divided amongst past loves and admirees. As much as it hurts, I have to keep moving on. We cannot be together anymore, because I do not like to be injected with poison and malice for the rest of my life.

".. perhaps when we are ready

when our lives are less hectic

we can find our way back to each other

but for the time being

i am chaos to your mind 

and you

you are pure poison to my heart"

Credit for poetry/ quote: poetician (on FB)