Everything will be okay

The effort he spent on letting Aiza go was enormous; more than the effort he gave to make our marriage work. That was how much she meant to him.

Whatever or whoever she was to him, I bet she was worth it. 

More than me.

More than I will ever be.

Any words that he says now, that she was just a friend, or was immaterial, or has been forgotten... these are words of a drowning man. He has said lots of things to recover our relationship (I doubt that we had a relationship to begin with) but most or all were/ are untrue. The words just sounded convincing, because he is good with words. That is who he is. But these words will not persuade me any more.

I am broken. Thanks for breaking me. I will rise from the ashes again. You bet I will.