Despite My Best Efforts

May I just point it down to me failing to take care of my husband properly?

We can just put that as a reason & seek divorce?

I have no energy to support him through this whole shit.

The tables may turn against me, for all we know.

The printouts will be sufficient I think, to show the emotional affair.

I can give other reasons too:

- staying together is not good for my mental health

- I can never trust him again after what he did

- he showed me no respect when decided to maintain the 3 idiots for the duration of our marriage (why or why or why??????) 

- the shadow of the 3 idiots will always hover at the back of my mind & gives mental block whenever I want to do anything with hubby

- there is no guarantee that it won't happen again, no matter how many high tech devices I install, or how many messages I monitor (AND do I want to monitor all his messages? He is NOT 10!!!!)

- let's say he weans himself from these 3 idiots, there are 3 billion other women in the world for him to pursue

- maybe I just don't love him anymore, and don't care

- I will not lift a finger or put any effort in the marriage from now on, because I have given up

- no matter what I do he will seek validation from other women, SO WHAT IS THE POINT?

Marriage literally is completely pointless. I don't want to be married ever again. No man can stand me, I cannot keep a man no matter what I do. I pay him little attention therefore he went into the arms of another women

Honestly, to save me from the suspense and anxiety, he can look for anyone he wants. Just stay away from me & never return. I can survive on my own & men are unnecessary for me. My track record with 2 has shown that I am not capable of taking care of husbands. Sorry my dear children, since I could not provide you with a father figure ☹