Blinded by the prospect (of the person he could be)

Was I in love with his potential, or with him?

He has his good points: he is kind, and does not raise his voice with me.

He loves the children, not easy to do: taking care of stepchildren.

He is a problem solver, for me, for the children, 

.. and for countless women (who asked, or who he reached out to).

As good or great as he is, I am choosing self-preservation.

Never will I go back to the muck/ fray/ cesspool of filth.

He may continue to love those other women without my intervention, or jealousy, or questions.

He may miss me for a bit, because we apparently had a life together, but soon all the girls may help him drown his sorrows. They have always been around in his life. In fact, for as long as I have known him (and let me also highlight that he never failed to remind me, that he has known Che Na and Aiza for far longer), he has always been surrounded by girls but my trust blinded me. 

I never saw that he could be a Casanova. Well he is. Undeniably so.

Now that my third eye is opened, I can never go back and continue receiving bullshit from him.

I am too good for all of that. Another beautiful journey awaits me, without him.

No matter, I have my wits about me. Walking alone is daunting, but I can do it.

Umi did it for so long (still doing it!). I should suck it up and emulate her.

Life teaches us great lessons, so long as we are willing to receive it.

I'm glad to have learnt this lesson, and to have been strong enough to make a decision.

Ganbatte ne! + Evermore vibe