Which Narrative Do We Subscribe To?

Am I the victim, or am I the survivor?

Do I suffer in silence, or do I speak up?

Is this worth pursuing, or is it better to let go?

If I stay, will he come clean and change for good?

Am I willing to stay knowing that he may stray?

His words do not matter anymore.

How much of mental pain or anxiety am I be willing to endure?

What about NONE!

Which options will he choose: Is there one, or two, or more?

What will be the consequences of my/ his actions?

Life is full of decisions to make.

This morning I was chatting with a friend about "positive thinking".

We tell ourselves things (good and bad) and our brains believe all of it.

Hence it is important to tell ourselves that WE CAN HANDLE THIS, 

and that WE WILL BE OKAY.

We are never perfect beings who will never make a mistake or take a misstep.

One thing FOR SURE is that these unfortunate events will happen, not just once but throughout our lives. The most important note to remember is that we should always strive to be better in the eyes of Allah, to be a good servant. Life is so temporary that we should not rely 100% on it. Life is torment, life is pain, yet life is also beauty and promise. 

My narrative to myself is that I will strive to be a good person, who will make me proud, who will make my mom and dad proud, whom Allah is pleased with. On the last aspect I probably have a LONG WAY to go but I will keep moving towards that direction. Moving is always better than sitting still, and making a decision is miles better than wallowing in self-pity or self-imposed drama.