You Thought You Had Me Figured Out

We have been married for 5 years. I have always let him go where he wants to go, and do what he wants to do, and pretty much pursue any interest that he may have PROVIDED that he stays loyal. This is on account that he had been single all his life & has a lifestyle that he is used to. 

His interpretation: he is loyal because he comes home to me, no matter how many girls he contacted.. or dropped loving messages to.. or go out to dinners with.. (and probably other stuff too, which I do not care to think about, because I have more important things on my mind). 

As a perpetual bachelor, even a married one, he doesn't have a bone in his body that accepted me as the only female partner and companion (he is allergic to the words "wife" and "marriage"). 

For me however, this concept/ idea/ principle goes against every fibre of my being. A man, once married, makes a conscious choice. If the choice (of being with ONE woman) is so unreasonable that it made him suffer or seek other women, then he should not have made that choice. He should have gone on single, contacting women left right and centre, and don't even bother taking care of a wife. Maybe I have high standards that many men could not deliver, but I will not ever change my expectations. If a husband cannot commit, then DON'T.

To him, I have always been soft/ sweet/ forgiving, especially when he says that they are all just friends, but this niggling doubt kept creeping.. and growing. 

Hence when I started digging I found incriminating evidence that is enough to sink a ship. These will be presented on 10 June. Not all of them though, because there are too many. Only the key ones, because I don't want the judge to vomit blood.

He may have thought that I will never get angry.. or that with his sweet words he could always persuade me to stay, and continue to be my old caring self. Not anymore brother. I am no longer that person & the stronger me will walk away, never to return. Thank you for the lessons & I hope whoever it was that you fancied will find her way back to you one day. Good bye and all the best!