Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Behind the Facade

Behind the "domestic goddess" wholesomeness there were allegations of drug usage.

Despite numerous promises to stay faithful, certain married men choose to open up their possibilities. There are better girls out there who outshine my poor shabby wife.

In the background of a picture-perfect family, there may be simmering & unresolved issues.

Something is brewing behind the facade, always.

Clarity

It is done. Those words had a finality to it- he had meant them as they were all along.

I had asked myself during our reconciliation attempt- should I have tried harder?

Looking back, I have done the best that I could with the resources and time that I was given. I have no regrets.

We had a good run. 16 years. Not bad for two mismatched crazy individuals.

Time to move on & look to the future.

That tomorrow will be 1 Jan 2014 is poignant in itself.

I am a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. I deserve to be here!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Normality

When the carpet is pulled from under your feet & you become off-balance, it is good to go back to what is familiar. I am back at the office today after a weekend whirlwind of confrontations and confessions (let's not get into details here, thank you very much!). Topsy-turvy weekend + 2-day training (thankfully with a small group) + now I'm back at the office.

Saturday felt like a lifetime away: how did it ever happen & how did we get it resolved? The info can fill pages of a book and perhaps it is also a good starting point for my writing. Channelling my raw emotions will be fantastic to at least start a chapter, won't it?

Currently we have agreed to work it out- I had felt hurt and saddened by the whole 'situation', then anger (to rage)... and now maybe there is a flicker of hope in rekindling the relationship. Let's take it a day at a time, shall we?