Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Let It Go

Words from my therapist: time will heal this pain and you have to be patient. The good thing is that you have made a decision; ambivalence will cause more grief and emotional pain.

What I have decided to do: cut off all communications related to "us", because "we" have been put to rest. Secondly, stop thinking about him- there is no use thinking of someone who is not thinking of me. Thirdly, do not let the 2 idiots reside in your brain rent-free. They are idiots, they have made stupid decisions & I do hope that they will live unhappily ever after.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Imperfections

Just now I ate a fried doughnut, hand-made & crispy on the outside. The imperfect outer layer, because they were not made by machines, was ragged & when fried turned out to be nice and crunchy to the taste. A flaw, so to speak, but made the food taste interesting.

As for our marriage, the imperfections were not as interesting, We had harped on our weaknesses, day in day out. It is a pity we never really saw each others good sides. Sadly, we have come to that... and it is time to let go. Her name is Siti Aisyah (what irony!). That she existed & (soon-to-be-ex) hubby was interested in her drove the wedge further apart. We have broken in two. Apparently she is his ideal "wife" candidate (and presumably I was not?). She had paid attention to him, made him happy, needed him. The desire for the other woman was so great that even 16 years of marriage and 5 children were not good enough reasons to stay (and work things out).

As much as this hurts, it is a lesson to be learnt. People change. They love other people. They may still care (a little bit) but I must face the truth. He has moved on & I have been left behind. So I must find ways to deal with it. Life sucks, but I have decided to become better (not bitter). Thanks Angie!