Life's Best Laid Plans

Earlier on in life I had learnt to make flexible plans.. to prepare for any eventuality.. and to be prepared to change or adjust the plans when it need be.. such was my life as the eldest of 8 siblings..

Once married I adjusted to my ex's regimented upbringing of everything being on time & schedules sent a week ahead of time.. because he is very organised and methodical..

After the divorce..

WELL..

My plans are open again..

To pursue my passion..

To regain my confidence & be comfortable in my own skin

To raise the children as responsibly as I possibly could

TO LIVE

TO FLOURISH

TO SHINE  *sparkles2*

Hopes and Dreams

Now I am back at the drawing board and my keyword is "explore".

Open my mind and embrace the opportunities.

If things don't work out or doesn't seem worthwhile anymore.. leave.. do something else.

If things seem too simple then fine.. try doing something harder.

When crunch time comes.. make (and pray that God guides you to make) the right choice(s).

Whatever that happened in the past, leave them behind.

Your bright beautiful sparkling gorgeous life awaits.

Making Life Choices

With age comes wisdom (I had hoped).

Now the decisions I make are based on the big picture. Still need to hone the skills as I do not read situations very well sometimes. 

Just went silent on my on-again off-again relationship.. or shall I say remnants of a relationship?

Can you cherish a person & admire him from far.. and NOT want anything to do with him at the same time? It is a complex feeling. Better to walk away before more emotions and feelings are invested. The lyrics to JB's "What Do You Mean" is starting to make sense now... because I do NOT know what I mean *gasp*

Read in linkedin yesterday.. an article written by Oprah Winfrey: https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/simple-life-changing-question-hardly-anyone-can-answer-oprah-winfrey.. and the question is "What do you (I) want?"

The excerpt is below:
It’s a deceivingly simple question — and one I’ve found most people can’t answer. Yet it’s profoundly important. What do you really want in your life? And where are you on the path towards what you really want?

Professionally I know exactly what I want to do now. My mind is pretty set on continuing my studies & charting my career pathway for the next 5-10 years.

Personally @ emotionally @ romantically, I have decided to block it out and not entertain any thoughts on romance (such a deceiving word!).

Move on. Live. Decide what you want and be responsible for your choices. Love you!

Break-Up #52

"I won't contact you any more."

It ended with a decision. To stop. To not hurt myself any more. To live on my own. To have my two feet firmly planted on the ground and to not float in the clouds any longer. To finally face my truth and ask myself squarely in the face: WHAT DO I WANT IN LIFE?

I still am a reasonably messy blob, but at least now on the outside I look very well-put together. Thanks to makeup, and work-outs, and regular sleeping time.

What will life be like? In honest truth, I really have no idea. However I am going to be brave, plant my heels and persevere. Strive. Let's do this.