Responsibility
My general advice to my children would be.. when you marry, just have one child. Maximum of two, so that the eldest child won't be lonely. That's it.. two tops. Or stay single all your life if you want to. Don't get married ever.
If they're worried about the cost of contraceptives, I will pay for it. An IUS would cost RM1000 for 5 years' usage, compared to RM500k-1mil to raise one child till employable age (and that is the most modest estimate, to say the least).
Why did I ever agree to this big family nonsense anyways. Mr Ex must have been very persuasive and I very dumb and gullible.
Now that I am here I will grit my teeth, dig my heels and do it all until the children reach employable age. Leaving them with Mr Ex would be a terrible idea, much worse than the idea of having them in the first place.
Why suddenly now he's set back financially? Why the bravado to have a second wife when he didn't have any bloody money in the first place? Maybe his income WAS better when he was married to me, who knows?
It is absolutely ridiculous that we're in this situation. I feel like I just want to sleep it all off but I can't.. because this is as real as it gets.. and this is the truth about my life & when I wake up reality will come trickling down & eventually hit me like it should.
If they're worried about the cost of contraceptives, I will pay for it. An IUS would cost RM1000 for 5 years' usage, compared to RM500k-1mil to raise one child till employable age (and that is the most modest estimate, to say the least).
Why did I ever agree to this big family nonsense anyways. Mr Ex must have been very persuasive and I very dumb and gullible.
Now that I am here I will grit my teeth, dig my heels and do it all until the children reach employable age. Leaving them with Mr Ex would be a terrible idea, much worse than the idea of having them in the first place.
Why suddenly now he's set back financially? Why the bravado to have a second wife when he didn't have any bloody money in the first place? Maybe his income WAS better when he was married to me, who knows?
It is absolutely ridiculous that we're in this situation. I feel like I just want to sleep it all off but I can't.. because this is as real as it gets.. and this is the truth about my life & when I wake up reality will come trickling down & eventually hit me like it should.
posted by elya at 5:34 pm
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