Thursday, March 30, 2017

Strength

Missing S yet decided to be strong. Decided to blog about it when I saw this featured article: http://www.glamour.com/story/kenzie-brenna-stretch-marks-photos

One day I may be (or have the strength to be) able to embrace my stretch marks *gaspppp*

There MUST be self-love before other loves. Yes I am on my way there. Just have to believe it :)

How do I manage all these emotions?
One step at a time,
One day at a time,
One inch or a mile of self-acceptance at a time!

It is OKAY. Many other women struggle with this ('this' being as small as a mole at the wrong place to body issues/ stretch marks/ personal flaws/ self-esteem).

There are some gorgeous ones out there too, but I am not in their shoes & don't have ANY idea of the battles they're fighting. So I have to learn to embrace EVERY FIBRE OF MY BEING and settle on being happy IN THE MOMENT.

Let's just do that. S will find his happiness and I will find mine.

Hopefully when the time comes we will be able to merge into a path that leads to some level of fulfillment (relationship-wise & spiritually too).

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Moving Forward Gloriously

Letting go and letting God mould me into someone useful.

Things do get much3 better I realise.

This was the progression (in my case):
First year of divorce: a lot of pain, anger, uncertainty, fear of the unknown (that I may not survive).
Second year: I will be okay; I have made a lot of progress.
Third year: Divorce, what divorce? I forgot the date & him too.

There may be marriage in the books, yet I don't know if I'm completely ready.

The children, despite me being a dysfunctional mom, are growing up reasonably well.

Career wise, maybe a change will be good. But I haven't made much effort in applying for the jobs. Need to rebuild the confidence I had during my legal days.

Wednesday, March 08, 2017

Tears I (We) Cry

No matter how put together or gorgeous or successful a woman may seem, she perpetually fights with an inner demon- am I making the right decision? Will I be good enough? Will I make it this time? Am I strong enough to face this?

Only some demons are smaller than others, or in some cases our inner voice becomes so strong and convincing that it devours and slays the demons.

On this apt International Women's Day, I wish all women the inner strength and external support to get through anything. We will emerge strong and gorgeous and rock the world.

Tuesday, March 07, 2017

Waiting...

When a promise is made, it has to be fulfilled.

That is just me.

Still trying to figure out what is currently happening.

Maybe I shouldn't (figure anything out). It is what it is. Status Quo.

Nothing changes until further notice.