The pain is the same

No matter how many times one falls in love,

No matter how little "feelings" were involved,

When the heart breaks, it breaks in a huge way.

There is a sense of loss which is unspeakable. You miss the normal mundane everyday activities, the messages, the back & forth that seems to come so very freely when one is in a close relationship. 

Now that we're breaking away from each other, literally every step is calculated. You don't want to seem too needy, or too cocky, or too self-centred. Somewhat like the early days of dating, but in reverse. 

You wonder how the person is doing, but do not want to venture beyond the usual niceties reserved for other friends or even a total stranger.

What is left for me to do is to embrace the pain and get through it. It is what it is. 

One breath, one moment, one day at a time. That should do it.