Do not expect an apology

The person who hurt me will not be giving me any real apology.

In the deepest recess of my heart, I don't expect them to.

I don't think they ever want to.

Why do they need to?

I'm just a person: nameless and faceless.

Collateral damage in their game of love (with my husband!)

People are self-centred and do not think of others, unless that person is a real life saint.

Which is one in two billion.

I think of myself too, like everybody else.

So why would I be so presumptuous to expect that they'll all come begging for my apology?

Let them live their boring lives, let them strive for whatever they need/ want, let me be me.

Ironically I am the one leaving the relationship.

They have done nothing wrong (they claimed). 

They're singing the same song (that what they did were harmless).

He was just being his naughty self (and they engaged in flirtatious banter, nothing more),

and those messages were not at all serious (what, those, they were nothing!),

everyone can laugh them off, what can't you?

BECAUSE based on a reasonable man or woman's expectation,

if they are not mentally ill or demented,

what he did with these ladies were not normal, or naughty, or funny.

The messages did not consider or respect my role as a wife,

or his role as my husband: my protector and guardian.

So now, I will no longer be convinced by his words or promises,

because his words of love meant nothing.. for the ladies (or even to me?),

and his banter was for everyone to consume, not to be taken to heart.

Me, the girls, the women of the world, everyone can have a piece of him. Why not?

Let me be the first to leave this madness.

Call me irrational, or over-reacting, or unreasonable,

You can even write a tome about my unexpected or abnormal behaviour.

I . do . not . care . anymore .

Why don't you be you, and I'll be me (THANKS James Bay!)