Married to "Bad Boys"

There is some level of danger and romance when dating a 'bad boy'. He may be popular, or sought after by other girls, he may make others swoon, or he may just be a sweet talker. To me it's flattering when someone like that falls for a nobody like me, and for both marriages I appear to have sought out similar characters. I threw caution to the wind & reveled in the fact that he has dedicated his love, affection and attention to me when we got married.

FAR FROM THAT, they have always had other interests. Eventually it became really tiring for me to catch up. To be sexier, to be more mysterious, to love him more, to do everything for him, to sacrifice? Whatever things that I had done (for love?), they were never good enough. For the sole reason that there are better younger sexier fun engaging cute women out there. So many women, and yet so little time.

My game plan right now, is to love myself. I will no longer pursue further love interests. My life, attention, and my heart will be dedicated to me and my family. No more bad, or good boys. I have come to the point where men's loving words do not matter any more. I'm all good, thanks. Now please be on your way. Let's not ruin each others' lives, shall we?