Relationship Status: It's Complicated

We enjoy the times we have had together.

He is a patient person and one of the best travel mates I have had in my life.

We can have conversations literally about anything in the world.

Our taste buds matched and we have a good appetite whenever we're in each others' company.

If only he could focus on and love only me. Is that too much to ask?

I really wish that I could forget everything and we could start over.

However we can't (start over). 

I want to throw out 19 February 2019 with the trash.

The time that we have after D day, I will use it to heal.

Sign myself up for therapy and do some self-healing.

Restructure my emotions and try to understand my reactions.

All these other people do not matter. 

Only WE matter (Do we?)

He may find someone better, and I will be happy for him if/ when he does.

That I promise.

My heart is heavy, like a stone.. more like a megalith actually.

I hope I will sleep through tonight and wake up in one piece tomorrow.

[How can someone be so right AND so wrong for another, at the same time??!!??]