My Outlet

When I feel down I hit the gym & focus on my physique. Or just work out until I get so tired that I can no longer think. Maybe S is just not that into me, right? For him to ask everybody else for dinner but me.. did he just forget or maybe he didn't want me there or he just didn't want to impose nightly outings on me?

Just now when I surfed on YouTube, I had chanced across a video on break-up songs. How they were inspired and such. The song "Someone Like You" by Adele was apparently the result of an ex who had asked someone else to marry him. She had mentioned that "he didn't see me that way (i.e. marriageable) and that was the worst feeling ever".

S does not see me as marriageable perhaps? Too much baggage. I want a good wet cry right about now, thank you very much! Why do I get so hung up on him anyways. You're so much better than him in more than one way. Please see that value in you my dear lovely girl! Let's move forward and pin this 'relationship' on the wall. Putting me in a box.. to look at only when he feels like it.. is so very reminiscent of my relationship with Mr Ex. To the point that he eventually forgot the box altogether.

OH WELLLLLLL... you're a grown woman & you can deal with this. Such a small petty matter. Grow up & move on.