Neuro-Divergence

There is a high likelihood that I am autistic.

A high-functioning one (I suspect), but lacking in social awareness (probably severely).

After Farah's experience and her therapy sessions, I started reflecting on myself. Because I am so much like her, you wouldn't believe it! Because of this I started doing online tests for autism from various sites and every one of them puts me on the spectrum. Last weekend at our Psychology faculty I did some workplace behavioural tests & found that I was below average in social skills! Oh my my my. 

That explains a number of things in my life and my relationships. My lack of care to people's feelings (or so it seems). I pick up some things, but tend to miss out A LOT of others. I am just lucky to have wonderful friends and people around, who have forgiven me every step of the way... and along the way I have gotten a label of "kurang ajar" a couple of times from unkind beings. So now I know. I am somewhat glad to be here now. At this moment.

I will talk to an expert in these coming weeks & consider getting properly tested. Just to know. Not that it would change anything, but it would help me understand myself better. Many have said that getting diagnosed at an older age may not be easy (because we have learnt to manage/ cope in all these years & in some ways it may not make any difference), but let's just get it done.

Drama

Person 1 (P1): a leader, loves to handle events with her as the central figure & everyone else assisting

Person 2 (P2): a post-holder, 1 level below P1, handles many student events, just want to get things done

Person 3 (P3): non-post holder, just helping out, equally capable but does not want posts

Boss: the boss, empathetic, understanding, efficient, also wants to get things done

Naturally all instructions come from the Boss.

P2 feels P1 is not comfortable when P2 gets things moving along.

P1 wants to be close to the Boss & be in his good stead. P1 is already!

P3 is neuro-divergent and do not feel any sentiments.

Eventually everything gets done but it strained the relationship between P1 and P2. P3 is protected because P3 is oblivious... and nobody tells the Boss, because he doesn't need to know.

Living on Borrowed Time

[Do we consciously feel it when we're about to die?]

I pray that I have enough time to share
Am sharing too as much as I can with my colleagues, with students, with the public via linkedin

I want to learn to do video editing to release content to YT
AND at the same time have it backed up on my blogs

What's my content? Law? T&L? Research?
Design Thinking? ID?

Looks like there's a couple of options!

So many plans, so little borrowed time 🙏
 

Post-retirement plans

When I retire, I was thinking to do one or more of these options.

Book reviews with the Online Book Club. I don't get paid for this, but I will get free books! This is relatively easy to pick up & start after finishing my PhD

Content developer in OpenLearning or YouTube or TikTok. My content may include:
- basic pedagogy concepts (e.g. "difference between pedagogy and andragogy")

- how to prepare lesson plans and activities;
- what is a learning outcome and why we use it in lessons;

- connecting LO to assessments; 

- law lessons for public/ non-law students;

- resource for students (e.g. mendeley, connected papers)

- applying & testing out training games

Corporate Training with INSKEN & Corporate Training contacts

"Makcik & Friends" is my YouTube channel where I meet my friends and interview them about career, about life, about everything. Format is like Ustaz Azhar Idrus' Q&A, we ask people to send in their questions & do monthly themes. Most importantly all our content is fact-checked from subject matter experts. This way I marry my legal and academic background with intellectual content, but delivered in a fun, non-teaching way

Part time teaching or visiting lecturer (Law)

Write case studies and share them for teachers or lecturers to use, with sample questions and proposed activities. These can also eventually be developed as case study books (e-book) or shared via website.

Lawyering? For some odd reason I still want to learn about mergers and acquisitions, and due diligence. It might kill me for all I know, but I may just go back and soak it up.