What lies ahead is another adventure

Life happens, as it does to the lot of us. Whether forgiveness is what we chose to give, is our own choice to make. I was serious all along, that he should not have any remnants of past loves. He could be on good terms with his exes, like I am with ex-hubby #1 but it is nowhere close to his 'friendliness' with all those girls. I do not believe the words uttered to me anymore, because of what he did. His actions made me question EVERYTHING from the beginning to this current day.

So now I have ex-hubby #2 and I have let go. 

What happens next is anyone's guess. I will not be friendly with him like Aiza, or Che Na. Because we no longer have any relations with each other. This experience has cut me deep, and the sad thing is he insists that there was nothing going on with all those women. My "serious" and his "serious" does not appear on the same page of the dictionary, apparently. 

I cannot accept it when he belittles my reactions to betrayal. It is dismissed with an admission of guilt, and that it won't happen again. I won't know for sure if it would, or would not, happen again and I will not stick around to monitor, check or find out. 

For the sake of my sanity, I have let go. He is free to do what he wants. Whatever he considers appropriate, because he is now a single man. He had done many good things; I'd like to think so have I, but we are no longer compatible. We shall walk the path of self-companionship moving forward.