Play on My Team

At the end of the day the best person you can rely on is yourself. Literally for everything. Except perhaps sex. Haha. Even that can be arranged if need be.

Anyway my point is more related to spiritual healing. Happiness is not dependent on others. It is within me. I am a beautiful happy strong person. That's the person who is staring back at me in the mirror every single day. So it doesn't matter if the world doesn't revolve around me.. or that people don't ask me out.. or I am not included in certain events.. It is all okay. I am fine. Unscathed. Well a little hurt.. that comes with the territory.. of getting older & more sensitive & unnecessarily sulking at the littlest things.. but in the large scheme of things I'm alright. I've got to be, because I have people to take care of. I love them and I will do my best for them. Even on days when I feel like I just want to cry & sleep all day. I can't have that luxury because they have to eat.

Which probably brings me to the next point. Having children or anybody to take care of for that matter, makes you take the focus away from your troubles (albeit for a little while) as your attention is required on bigger more important things. That's accountability I guess. Welcome to the real world, my girl. Embrace all these events & feelings and let them change you for the better. Love you LOTS.