Vested Interest

Scorpios are probably the most difficult people to figure out when it comes to relationships. In my case I don't know what I want yet. So there's no way of figuring me out, until I decide what it is I want.

How nice if we could remain close without the jealousy. Maybe from past experience I will tend to take off at the slightest indication @ insinuation that he's interested in somebody else. And the fact that no one knows about our relationship.. and that he refuses to declare anything about us, puts me in a very insecure position. So do we have a relationship.. or not? (I might still be asking this same question one year from now, for all I know).

Men want a woman who can hang out with his boys & be his companion. Someone he can talk to. What am I to him? Just someone he misses & ask out when he remembers to? It feels like that. He probably will not ever ask me to marry him actually. So why am I still hanging around? Do I want to open myself to more heartbreak?